Today will be a long blog..hmm..also..want to thank those who have been reading my posts...well..im down with a slight flu and severe sore throat. Hai...not feeling well..and I've got a minor injury...its minor but it sure hurts like sh*t..when i bathe..I could have screamed my lungs out..sounds ironic..but its true..hmm..on Tues I had 2 tests...I was really frantic..cos I have "SEVERE time constraint syndrome'..time seems to pass so quickly..anyone who takes a peek into my life will know how I feel..wad I mean is that..however close a person may be to me..they will never know how I feel deep inside..currently..im QUITE happy with the band..as in..we are improving..but not tremendously..and Friday's first assembly..I wonder how we are going to perform..haiz...and the band is always in a BIG mess...untidy and DIRTY. If only yanyi and qiaojuan were around...things would be different...if only there were people like wei da and benjamin..things would be different 2..if only we had a trumpet player like yanyi..we will sound so much better...and IF ONLY qiaojuan was around to do things orderly and reinforce the rules..we will LOOK more like a band. Yea..I guess I could be pretty much upset with my grades...im not performing..and im anxious. Today during dnt lesson..I sat down alone at my table and drew my exploration of ideas while most of my classmates were starting on their practical...while I was drawing..I began to think of many stuffs...I began to reflect and search deep within myself..I asked myself what should I do to improve on everything that I do...whether is it studies, cca or any other things...I still could not find the answer and im still searching for it...hmm...wanna apologise to band members...just wan to tell everyone that wadever I do..I have no ill intentions...I merely do wad is necessary..being a SL..Im sorry that I have to tell some of them not to play some parts cos they sound terrible..I don't want to be mean..but because of the band's sake..I have to do so..yea..this is for the clarinets. Hmm..let me think wad else I wanna add..oh yea..on friday..we have to do our best cos mr ong is not there to guide us...we MAY sound terrible but its ok..SYF is the main focus...hmm..im gonna have some ice-cream now...relaxation..lolz...looking back..its been awhile since I use the word 'lolz' in my posts..hmm...to those who will be listening to the band on friday...please excuse or forgive us if we play badly..we seek ur utmost support..that is enough for the band. Of cos..we will put up our best front and we will not disappoint the school..wish us all the best..! Im coming ice-cream..!